There’s an ongoing battle that goes on within my head and my heart. Throughout my life I’ve continually struggled with a condition where I become so focused on the future that I fail to fully appreciate the present. If you’ve read any of my blogs, you can probably tell that I’m extremely goal oriented. I like to continually set and re-set my goals. I tend to focus on what I want, devise a plan, and then take action to get it. To me life is a moving target; there’s always work to be done and improvements to be made.
Most days I feel grateful for what I have. But perhaps simple gratitude isn’t enough. Sometimes it seems as though I am never truly at peace with the present moment. It’s as though I never feel fully satisfied. I’m always hungry for more. Sometimes I think this is a superior quality to possess; it’s what drives me to work hard and it’s what drives me to succeed. But I have to wonder: is it possible to feel at peace and satisfied with the present while still maintaining high hopes and ambitions for the future? I believe that it is possible. I guess I just need to stop, take a deep breath, and remind myself each day that I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be at that very moment. I should be grateful for what I have right now. Sure, there’s a lot to look forward to but for now- I need to be satisfied with who I am and what I have today.
Typically when I meditate and reflect upon my life, the majority of my focus is on my future goals and the steps that I am going to take to achieve them. However, I seem to focus on these things anyway, throughout the day. What I am going to focus on from now on, is relaxing and experiencing peace and gratitude for the present moment.
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