Lost & Found

I have some pretty exciting things going on in my life right now! Just last week, I began my new job with Saks Fifth Avenue. It’s completely invigorating to be working in a new environment, meeting new people and learning new skills. I’m confident that I will shine in my new role and continue to encounter new and exciting opportunities in my career. I’m also very excited about my new(ish) relationship; I’m truly happy and things seem to be off to a great start!

Then yesterday, it hit me.

I realized that I’ve been so focused on my new job and my new relationship that I haven’t been making much time for myself. Although I’m a very social person and tend to live a very fast-paced lifestyle, I generally take time (at least several minutes every day), to somehow focus on personal reflection and awareness. I do this by blogging, meditating, doing yoga, reflecting on my goals, or reading and doing research... by myself. I know that these aspects of my life are central to making me who I am; yet, sometimes when my life becomes so full of activity, I lose focus.

I know that I possess a deep, insightful, passionate and spiritual essence about me. But it is deep within me, hidden behind all the barriers, waiting for me to recognize it. I can choose to be aware of it or to ignore it. I think it can be so easy to just go through the motions each day without taking any time to relax or reflect and realize what’s going on within. For me, taking time to explore myself is also a means to developing a more expansive way of seeing the world around me.

Needless to say, the fast-pace of my life over the past few weeks and the focus of all my attention towards my job and my relationship has left me feeling a bit lost. Now that I recognize this, I can concentrate on getting back on track. Given all the newness in my life, I probably need to reconsider my goals and re-examine my focus anyway. I’m so grateful to have a new exciting job and wonderful boyfriend. But, I need to reclaim some of my time and energy for ME. I don’t think this is selfish. In fact, I think that by making personal time a priority again, I will ultimately be able to become a better employee and a better boyfriend. I think it’s all a matter of balance.